o.o; Wow. Haven't updated this thing in nearly a year and a half. Got good reasons, though.

First off, I haven't been able to draw. And I don't really want to put up the things I write up here. I feel it isn't good enough and doesn't deserve to be here.

Secondly, I was diagnosed with depressive Bipolar disorder with agoraphobia (fear of empty spaces or whatever) on May 17th, 2008, 3 says after my 17th birthday. My meds have driven me half-crazy at times, which made it harder to come on here. It would depress me more, seeing everyone's work which is much greater than my own.

Third off, I've been lazy. What can I say? I'm a procrastinator. |D But I'm still looking for roleplays to participate in. >.>

Oh. And I also graduated high school (even though for my senior year I had to go to an all girl's school for something I'm not gonna mention, in case my school mates see this. Luv you guys. <3) I'm not in college or in any program as of right now because I needed to have a break from school, and my family is dangerously low on money at the moment and I don't really wanna go yet. I'm scared. But I was in my school's play and ended up liking it, so I'm thinking of joining a theater club during the summer. Got my cousins into it, too. :,D -feels special-

And my aunt lost her baby girl and her uterus on September 29th, 2009. Which caused me to plummet more into depression, since two years back she lost her unborn baby boy. So... yeah. D:

What else... ah, almost forgot. I got to meet P.C. and Kristin Cast, mother/daughter writers of The House of Night series (which I seriously recommend). Though P.C. Cast (the mother) practically yelled at me after asking a question about what they do when they get writer's block. Apparently she doesn't believe in writer's block! Her daughter saved me at the end by saying that she gets writer's block, too. (She's writing her own series as well.) But it was fun. And I got the latest HoN book, Tempted, and got it signed.

Hmm... I dunno what else to say... I'm gonna make a new icon, though, since the friend who made my current one doesn't come on here anymore. That, and it's old. ((EDIT: I have no friggin' idea what to make for a new icon and can't reset to a normal one. =_=; ))

I can't catch up on journals or deviations, and I most likely won't be viewing any for a while to keep me from being depressed ('cause you guys' art pwns mine). Sorry. ._. Note me a picture you really want me to see, though, and I'll look at it. Promise~.

I'm gonna end it here. 'Grats if you read any of this. 'Grats more if you read this so far.

Happy Halloween.